Archive for September, 2006

Am I feeling alright? ;)

Wednesday, September 27th, 2006

Today I actually said “You know what i am craving? A salad with grapes, cheese and vinegarette dressing.”

I went to the grocery store and got almost everything I was looking for.  The icing would have been if I would have been able to find some roasted walnuts and actually had Pro Club dessing to sprinkle ontop.

I wish that the Pro Club would bottle thier dressing.  It’s awesome and I miss it on my salads.

What do I miss?

Tuesday, September 26th, 2006

I get that question a lot from people and the answer even surprises me.

Now that I am on the fruit portion of my plan, there is very little that I need or want.

The first couple weeks I would crave a piece of celery or cheese, nothing really crazy like deep fried snickers.  A lot of people in the office are talking about their trip to the fair this last weekend and how they ate and ate and ate somemore.  They would tell me about the corndog or elephant ear or cheese curds they had and none of it really made my mouth water.  Don’t get me wrong, some of the food sounded quite tastey. I would have to say that I am true believer in the chemical balance of the body and I can say for sure that I am chemical balance right now.

Usually when I try and answer the question for people as to what I miss I will tell them that Dessert still eludes me. I would love to have a piece of chocolate cake but it better be the best damn piece of cake ever, or I am not eating it.  I will not put sub-standard food in my mouth.  Pizza is another food that still gets to me, but again only certain kinds. Domino’s just won’t do it anymore.  Finally the last thing that still gets me everyonce in a while is pop or juice.  That’s gonna be a hard one to break but so far I have been able to go without it so it’s not like I NEED it.

Overall this program is the best program I have ever encountered that really shows you how to make this a lifestyle. I love this program and I love how my body is responding to it.

20.4 Lbs in 4 weeks!

Monday, September 25th, 2006

wow. i was absolutely surprised when I weighed in at the dietitians today.  I had lost 6 lbs last week.  That’s just crazy with how much I ate out last week.  I guess I am doing something right.  Megan, my dietitian, was happy to see that I made pretty good food choices overall and didn’t go crazy and have dessert or pop or anything.

I am allowed friut now so I am looking forward to that. 

Hit a wall

Friday, September 22nd, 2006

Holy cow I am exhausted and just want to cheat so badly right now.  My entire bady is screaming out for a pop or chocolate or something that will give me a jolt.

I am not sure if my current mood is job or diet related but either way it’s not really a good place.  I can’t focus, I REALLY don’t want to work out today and I am forcing food down my throat and it’s just not helping my mood, hunger or cravings at all.  Today is gonna be a really long day.

Derailed

Wednesday, September 20th, 2006

I really really need to get back on track.  Monday I had a cheeseburger (no bun) and seafood chowder for dinner and then today for lunch I had a taco salad from a local Mexican restaurant, definitely not lean meat or low fat cheese. AND I ate some of the chips and part of the shell.  I am actually pretty upset with myself right now.  I really want to keep to this plan as closely as possible and yet I keep slipping.  I need to start preparing my meals ahead of time and stick to a very strict schedule.  I might even go back to my food journal and eat the exact same foods I did during week one so I can re-teach my body and myself what I need.  If I lose any weight this week it will be a miracle.

Trainer pains

Tuesday, September 19th, 2006

So I have been with my trainer now for almost a month and it’s not getting any easier.  I don’t mean the workouts I mean the inevitable relationship you form with someone you see for at least 4 hours a week.  I have tried numerous times to talk with her and I get really short answers and then more silence.  We are both from the Midwest.  She went to school 20 miles from the town I lived in for 8 years.  You would think that would be enough to talk about but she is just weird when it comes to talking.  Recently she has really been trying and I am learning a bit more about her but it seems very forced.  I guess I didn’t really know what to expect but I do think of myself of a very friendly person and most of the time when I am hanging out with people the words just flow effortlessly.  It is getting a bit better but the minutes of silence are just killing me.  I have started to hum to myself just to keep myself from screaming outloud from total boredom.   I really wish that we could start a pseudo friendship going so that it makes the time fly by faster. To me is just seems very Trainer/Client and I wish is was more Motivating Friend/Motivated Worker. I am not giving up on her by any means.  I wouldn’t want to start over with someone else but I do need to make this work for my own sanity.  How do you tell someone they are not being friendly enough to you? How do you cross the employee/employer boundary comfortably?  I have been very spoiled at Monkey Bar and Velocity to be able to find someone in the class who I can talk to and keep motivated. Now that it’s one on one it’s harder.

Start of week 4, recap of week 3.

Tuesday, September 19th, 2006

I had my dietitian appt today.  I was down two lbs from last week.

Not too bad considering I had a heck of a lot of steak, mashed potatoes and a Choc Chip cookie the night before.  We went to the same hotel we got married in one year ago and had the same dinner and stayed in the same room as our wedding night.  It was a great dinner and a great night to spend alone with my husband.  It’s hard to believe it’s already been a year.

This week I am able to add in cheese.  I have been waiting for this week for a while now.  I can finally cook things and eat cheese like a true midwesterner should ;)   I have been craving beef stroganoff so I think I am going to make that sometime this week.  I will have to pay close attention to portion size cuz i know I can get a little overboard when it comes to my favorite foods.

One thing the dietitian brought up is that I am not getting enough protien in my diet.  I mistakenly thought that the yogurt was a protien even though we went over that during last weeks session, so I was basically eating a lot of carbs and fat last week which is why I think I didn’t lose more weight.  I want to follow more closely how much protien I am getting and be more on track with that.  The cheese will help since i am allowed to count my 2 servings of cheese towards my protien.

1st Group Session

Friday, September 15th, 2006

Last night was my first group session on the 20/20 program.

It went by pretty fast but the counselor was really empathetic. Emphasis on the pathetic.  She seems almost fake the way she would reflect back to the person.

After group, I started talking to one of the women in the group and we went up to the bistro and hung out while I grabbed some dinner.  She seemed really cool and it was really cool to talk to someone about the program and just life in general. That’s what group should be like.

Note to Self.

Wednesday, September 13th, 2006

Don’t add peanut butter to the shakes.  Not very appetizing.

Start of week three. Recap of week 2.

Monday, September 11th, 2006

This week was veggie week and I was happy to have a little bit of variety but I will admit I did not follow the program like I should have.  I had the greatest intentions but not the best follow through.  The batch up muffins I cooked up were not really good and I ended up throwing away most of them.  I really need to get back into the groove. I went out to eat a couple times and tried to make good choices.

My weigh in with the dietitian was disappointing.  I only lost .6 lbs.  I was pretty upset but not really all that surprised.  The dietitian is not too concerned because of how much I lost last week but she did stress that I need to keep up with the calories as to not send my metabolism into shock. She allowed me to progress onto yogurt even though I lost less than a pount. (They usually want to keep you on the previous weeks plan until they see more weight loss)

She gave me some literature about Designed Dinners. They offer a 20/20 night twice a month and all the meals are 20/20 approved.

I think I will probably sign up for this program just until I can trust myself to eat and cook the right things. It’s $200 for what basically comes out to be 48 portions of 12 different meals.  That would last me quite a while and I can freeze the options that don’t quite fit into the program yet.


So this week wasn’t really the best motivator but I know that stuff like this happens. 

One thing that I didn’t do last week was walk to work at all.  With Momiji in the hospital and being behind at work, I drove everyday. This week that will change.